Background

A little background information is probably appropriate at this point.  I've enjoyed a relatively quiet life when it comes to my health. Never had a broken bone, never been in the hospital, and rarely ever sick. Always been a fitness nut and health conscious.  I don't drink or smoke. I'm a police officer so drugs are obviously out of the picture.  So, to go from the of picture of health (running half marathon races) to the worst end of the spectrum was a shock. I spend most of my free time either in the gym or outdoors so being sick with cancer just didn't fit into my life!

I was diagnosed in May of last year after a hysterectomy. My doctor was just as shocked as me. If it had not been for the surgery, I would not have been diagnosed til it was too late. It's crappy having cancer but it's better than being dead at the ripe old age of 45. 

I have so much more on my mind but I don't have it all organized in my head yet. I've learned so much in the last year but yet; still confused. I wondered the other day how I could feel so alone when I'm surrounds by so many who love me............................?